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tree_talking) wrote2012-03-13 01:29 pm
tree_talking) wrote2012-03-13 01:29 pm
ugh, more anxiety bullshit
Ugh, everything is causing me anxiety right now. EVERYTHING. I just read something about the Hunger Games movie which I'm not even really that invested in. And *bam* anxiety. What the hell?
not to mention that I have a blazing case of the sads. And it's not just about Dad's passing. I swear to god it's everything from the PAST 12 YEARS REARING ITS UGLY HEAD. I swing from being okay, to being a basketcase, to wanting to cry so hard I lose my voice.
I'm so fucking tired.
I've got so much work at work to do and so much work at HOME to do and I just...can't. Anxiety makes me freeze. I go from being full of dread to being okay. I want everyone to stay the fuck away from me...and I also want someone to take care of me. Frankly, I'm surprised I haven't been picking at my skin or pulling out my hair more. Not that I'm complaining about that...
I'm just glad I front well.
not to mention that I have a blazing case of the sads. And it's not just about Dad's passing. I swear to god it's everything from the PAST 12 YEARS REARING ITS UGLY HEAD. I swing from being okay, to being a basketcase, to wanting to cry so hard I lose my voice.
I'm so fucking tired.
I've got so much work at work to do and so much work at HOME to do and I just...can't. Anxiety makes me freeze. I go from being full of dread to being okay. I want everyone to stay the fuck away from me...and I also want someone to take care of me. Frankly, I'm surprised I haven't been picking at my skin or pulling out my hair more. Not that I'm complaining about that...
I'm just glad I front well.