Thank you to everyone who posted on my last entry

I wish I could explain everything to you all, but I'm having a really hard processing and expressing myself. I feel so damn *bad* and so sad that I can barely breathe with it.

I'm not angry with anyone, oddly enough. I'm just incredibly sad, I feel as if I don't know who I am, and I feel so utterly lost. I do not know how to find a therapist/counselor. I feel cut off and lost at sea.

Hubby is going through his own thing right now, since he's kind of in the middle of this, and I really do not know what to do to make this better.

I'm tired, even though I've slept, and just can't think anymore.