tree_talking: (nyanko chips by creamiiicandy)
2017-05-27 09:05 pm

Hello everyone!

I will try to be around more often. Let me tell you about a thing what just happened a few weeks ago: Liam was inducted into the National Honor Society! We're currently making arrangements for him to get a job for the summer and looking at things for him to start college soon after senior year. As for me, I have started belly dancing, and I'm involved with a dance troupe that does many different styles of dancing. It's hard but I'm enjoying it! I want to be here more often, so hopefully I can work it so that I can post at least weekly.
tree_talking: (noun is a person place or thing)
2015-04-17 01:49 pm

Updating!

Just getting on long enough to say that my son made honors for the third quarter in a row, and his second high honors quarter.

I am so proud of him, and yes, I told him that multiple times yesterday. He works so hard and tries so hard, and it's wonderful to give him that sort of praise and recognition.

And, of course, the fact that we buy him a video game pretty much whenever he makes honors helps. ;)

I think the most valuable thing that I've learned in my life has been that you need to encourage kids in the direction THEY want to go in, not the direction YOU want them to go. Liam consistently strives for excellence in everything he does, and I think it's because he knows that we support him in his interests and dreams.

I'm so excited for him.
tree_talking: (nyanko chips by creamiiicandy)
2015-03-27 07:19 pm

Gratuitous Picture of my Kid

It's been a while since you've seen Liam, if you've been following me for a while. He had a semi-formal dance to go to tonight, and he was so handsome in his shirt and tie so I had to share. Also, all clothes are my husband's; somehow I have a kid who can wear his dad's clothes. Weird.


He's 5'6'' or 5'7'', and he's making honors in school. He's a great kiddo. :)
tree_talking: (Purely Medicinal)
2015-02-09 10:44 pm

...welp, that happened

hey remember the last post where I said I was continuing with my classes? Read more... )
tree_talking: (noun is a person place or thing)
2015-02-07 10:32 pm

so, things are better (brief update)

It's not really a major yay, but I did speak with the Hubster on the issue I had discussed in my last post, and I have decided to continue with my classes. Read more... )
tree_talking: (Purely Medicinal)
2015-02-06 01:24 pm

*points to icon* Yes, I'd like to drink all day long, plz and thank you

*sigh*

So I have had a bit of drama lately in My So-Called Pagan Life. And it's really hard to explain but the upshot of it is that I might need to stop learning from the particular teacher I'm taking classes in. Read more... )
tree_talking: (my only hope)
2015-01-30 01:43 pm

Hi! Updating like an updatey thing!

Hello all! Just here to update y'all on my life. :)

I don't often go on DreamWidth, I never did get the hang of it, but since I'm crossposting to LJ it'll be easier to keep with things, hopefully.

-Liam is now 15 years old. He is five feet, six inches tall, which means he pretty much TOWERS over me. ...he has to shave now. It's weird.

-I have gone onto maintenance with my weight loss plan. I went from a size 22 to a size 8-10 and I'm pretty satisfied with it.

-that said, loose skin is kind of disheartening.

-I'm still working at the same Senior Services agency that I've been working at for the past 7 or so years and I still like it, even though it can be a little dull.

-I am currently in classes to gain my 2nd Degree in Wicca. The classes are really good and helpful to me personally, as it does cover some lack in my education as a human being.

-It's been a long dry season in the case of writing but I'm starting to get my creativity on again. Right now I'm working on a couple of fics, one for Homestuck and one for Hunger Games. It's coming steadily. the thought of leaving those two in progress forever is not an option.

How is everyone doing these days? I'm usually over at Tumblr but I'm trying to get away from that, as Tumblr really...requires no deep thought from me. It's all reblogging. Kind of boring but also hard to tear yourself away from.

What are you guys up to?
tree_talking: (nyanko chips by creamiiicandy)
2014-05-25 12:07 pm

...omfg what the hell happened to lj???

omg everything is different this is weird and

wow.

I think I kinda like the new friends page tho... Hmmm

Welp, time to leave the house, I just wanted to kinda...post something, I dunno.

Say hi if ya wanna, I'll say hi back! :D
tree_talking: (English is a bad influence)
2014-01-13 04:22 pm

oh geez, like! I forgot A Big Thing!

I have been losing boatloads of weight!

As has hubby.

We went for hypnotherapy for weight loss, and we have been eating meat and veggies. He's been on for 7 months and he has lost about...twelve inches around his waist, no lie.

I have been on for 4 months and I have lost about five inches so far.

We're not allowed to weigh ourselves so no idea about pounds.

We have a whole new way of thinking about food and we are both much healthier. I've already gotten off of one of my diabetes meds.

I will, at some point, post pics of both of us. Because it's pretty darn incredible! :D
tree_talking: (Purely Medicinal)
2014-01-13 03:22 pm

Um...hi! Again. :D?

I haven't posted here for a god-awful long time, have I? Geeez.

So...updatey things, I guess.

1. Liam is in 8th grade, he is 14 years old and he is now taller than me by 3 inches at least. How did that happen? I dunno!

2. I am still in therapy, which is actually a really good thing. It's been helping me sooo much.

3. Still Pagan. 1st Degree Wiccan now. Still happy with it.

4. Family shit...is still actually kind of shitty! at least on my side. on hubster's side? Doing really well, so there's that. My brother isn't really talking to me. We sometimes nudge each other on facebook. But that's about it.

5. Personally, for me, life has never been better. I'm happy and generally stable, I've started coming out of a years-long stint of anxiety. Family life for US is very happy and peaceful. Liam is enjoying my husbands and my spiritual journey and seems to really connect with the ritual.

This weekend, I got a really disturbing memory scratched to the surface and I'm really sort of weirded out about it: I wrote this on my tumblr today:

I can't wait for Therapy )

But anyway, that's about it. Life is weird but decent. Feeling more like Me than I ever have. :D
tree_talking: (nyanko chips by creamiiicandy)
2014-01-13 01:52 pm

Um...hi! Again. :D?

I haven't posted here for a god-awful long time, have I? Geeez.

So...updatey things, I guess.

1. Liam is in 8th grade, he is 14 years old and he is now taller than me by 3 inches at least. How did that happen? I dunno!

2. I am still in therapy, which is actually a really good thing. It's been helping me sooo much.

3. Still Pagan. 1st Degree Wiccan now. Still happy with it.

4. Family shit...is still actually kind of shitty! at least on my side. on hubster's side? Doing really well, so there's that. My brother isn't really talking to me. We sometimes nudge each other on facebook. But that's about it.

5. Personally, for me, life has never been better. I'm happy and generally stable, I've started coming out of a years-long stint of anxiety. Family life for US is very happy and peaceful. Liam is enjoying my husbands and my spiritual journey and seems to really connect with the ritual.

This weekend, I got a really disturbing memory scratched to the surface and I'm really sort of weirded out about it: I wrote this on my tumblr today:

I can't wait for Therapy )

But anyway, that's about it. Life is weird but decent. Feeling more like Me than I ever have. :D
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2013-05-16 07:59 am

update

Starting counseling on the 28th. If all goes well, should be every other Tuesday. I kind of wish it was sooner. I feel like I've got poison inside me and counseling is the only way I can drain it out.

Frankly, I'm surprised I'm still getting out of bed in the morning. I have gotten up almost every morning thinking "I can't do this anymore" for as long as I can remember. But somehow, I just keep doing it, smiling and acting fine most days.

I really wish I could stay in bed. I don't want to deal with the world today. Most days.
tree_talking: (nyanko chips by creamiiicandy)
2013-05-10 02:04 am

...a bit more positive. But not much?

So shit happened on Sunday that I really don’t want to discuss. I wasn’t involved except that my husband and brother were involved and pretty much…said some horrible things and hubby is pretty upset, and I’m pretty upset.

It brought some issues to the front that we usually don’t deal with, and the upshot of all of this is that we’re each going to start therapy in the next couple of weeks. I still have to call—I’m scared. But I’m more scared not to do it. I’ve known that I need to do this for a long time, several years, but I’ve been fighting it because My Family is From New England and We Ignore Shit till it’s too late. We are Stoic New Englanders (insert stereotype here). I have trouble asking for help and hate to admit weakness.

I’m tired of fighting my need for this. I’m tired of trying to do it on my own. I thought I had this conquered but nope. Going to try and unravel the crapola that has run through my life is going to be difficult…I hope it’ll be worth it.
tree_talking: (nyanko chips by creamiiicandy)
2013-05-06 02:00 pm
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Thank you to everyone who posted on my last entry

I wish I could explain everything to you all, but I'm having a really hard processing and expressing myself. I feel so damn *bad* and so sad that I can barely breathe with it.

I'm not angry with anyone, oddly enough. I'm just incredibly sad, I feel as if I don't know who I am, and I feel so utterly lost. I do not know how to find a therapist/counselor. I feel cut off and lost at sea.

Hubby is going through his own thing right now, since he's kind of in the middle of this, and I really do not know what to do to make this better.

I'm tired, even though I've slept, and just can't think anymore.
tree_talking: (nyanko chips by creamiiicandy)
2013-05-05 08:59 pm

...so uh, hi

I've lost so much contact with my internet friends. And I need them so sorely right now.

Nothing is going right. I just. I wish that I could just have a break from all the fucking drama.

My husband is fighting with my niece. Now my brother is fighting with my husband. On facebook. About the stupidest shit imaginable. On the anniversary of my MOTHER'S DEATH.

I feel like my family is taking sides. Against my family.

There's so much hurt here that I do not even know where to begin.

I'm so fucking tired of it all. I wish I could just talk to someone who isn't emotionally involved. Unload all of it.

I can't even begin to talk about how much pain I'm in and there's nothing for me to do about any of it. It has nothing to do with ME.

It's just everyone around me and I feel like curling up into a tiny ball and just shutting out the world.

EDIT: Things seem to be calmer but I'm still upset. I'm going to have to gather my thoughts and write more coherently about things. And I think I might need to see a counselor. Shit is getting too difficult for me to handle without some one to bounce things off of that isn't emotionally involved with my life. I'm sort of overwhelmed and it's not good.
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2012-10-30 05:40 pm

pursuant to my last post

OK, so it turns out the lawyer *has* to be present, because we rejected the IEP the first two times. She’s there to make sure everyone understands each other.

Still, it would have been nice to have that explanation, instead of just sticking her name on there and what? Hope we wouldn’t notice?

Anyway. My last post still stands.

I’m not amused, school system. So not amused.
tree_talking: (Default)
2012-10-30 08:34 am

No. *NO*. Fuck you.

I refuse.

I refuse to let you make me feel like a bad parent. I refuse to allow you to bully us. I refuse to sit by and let my son coast through the school system.

I refuse to let you treat my son like an imbecile. I refuse to let you treat us like morons.

That IEP meeting you guys decided on FRIDAY to let us know would be attended by a LAWYER? Yeah, not happening unless you call her off.

You cocksucking bastards. You motherfucking idiots.

You lulled me into a false sense of security by going along with what we suggested this year. You gave us what we wanted.

And now you pull this shit?

Fuck you.

And I'm the NICE one.
tree_talking: (books!)
2012-10-22 09:52 pm

A request

I have a special friend that I have been talking to for a few months now. We met through the Homestuck fandom and became close. She's much younger than I am, living at home, working on her family's farm.

Tonight, her father is coming home from a long absence. He has been abusive and extremely controlling with her in the past. She's scared and I don't blame her.

I am worried. I hate that she can't just leave the situation. She lives far from me and we've never met.

Please send her good, positive energy tonight so that she might be safe, be able to deal with him, and be able to leave and go somewhere to be safe and have a good life of her own. No matter who you pray to, no matter what you do to send energy, please send some her way?

I'd appreciate it.

I think the biggest trouble with the internet is that you start to care about people that are so far away that you can do very little to help.
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2012-10-15 02:03 pm

*checks* nope, still not dead.

So I will do some bullet points.

--T-minus 6 days for my sister-in-law's wedding. I have a pretty dress to wear. I will look stunning. Other than that: not really looking forward to it. In general, I dislike any family gatherings where my sister-in-law is the focal point. My in-laws are rather shameless about their preference for one child over the other. It's really not a comfortable situation. I also think that my sister-in-law is a little nutty for getting married at barely 21. YMMV.

--We have a new kitty! she was being abused by her owner, and hubby said that we would take her in. (yes, he checked with me!) She's another black cat. All black. But her eyes are a gorgeous pumpkin-y orange, and she's more round-y than our other cat. She's sort of hidey at the moment and we hope that the cats will get along (they seem to be giving each other space at the moment), that the dog will not get too injured in dealing with the cat, and that everyone will be comfy with each other soon.

--Spiritually, I'm delving deeper. Not really ready to discuss it on the internets yet. But it's good. :)
tree_talking: (nyanko chips by creamiiicandy)
2012-09-21 02:18 pm
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so, new project!



My son wants to be Sora for Halloween. Hooboy.

Guess I gotta fire up the sewing machine. I better start soon.